The progressive dinner Sunday night was tons of fun, but I was really worn out after everyone left. Part of me just wanted to go to bed and leave the mess for the next day, but the sensible part won out. I turned the TV channel to the Traditional Christmas Music station and sang along. It didn't take long at all and I enjoyed myself while I worked. The dining room and kitchen were sparkly and clean when I came down the stairs Monday morning......
Monday morning.....a week since we said goodbye to Tiger Girl. I still miss her so much, but I'm doing better than I thought I would. Of course, something will happen, or not happen...and then the sadness resurfaces. I know it will just take time......
Time......Just yesterday, I had a feeling come over me that I wished I could throw a lasso over Time and stop it, or at least slow it down for a little while. I've never felt quite that way before and I don't know if it's just because of my age, or the fact that we just lost Tiger Girl, or what.........
What I love about this time of year is all the Christmas music, TV shows and movies. I can't seem to get enough. It doesn't even matter if I've heard or seen something a zillion times.....and sometimes, my favorites are the ones that are so corny......
"You know, it sounds corny, but I believe in myself. And I work hard." -- Arthur Godfrey
Your feelings are quite normal, Becky, and probably do stem some from age. We suddenly realize that time does move on with haste like a spring creek, twisting and turning. We can stand, still and motionless on the bank all we want, but nothing stops that water from eddying and twisting on to wahtever fate is ahead.
ReplyDeleteChristmas brings all the past up for us, good and bad. We feel emotiions and re-experience moments from our lives that remind us time moves ahead. During both these dark Solstice days of winter and the cheery days of Christmas season, we can still ourselves for quiet moments, but in doing so, we revisit things we have lost as well. It is okay to look at them once again like Ghosts of Christams Past, including the Tiger moments of the past. Relish them for the memories they are and then move on for what the future holds...as it holds good things for you Becky!
Becky sounds like you are feeling all the normal things from losing a beloved pet. I am having emotional Christmas this year myself and haven't figured out exactly why yet. Age for sure. Thinking of you and wishing you a peaceful day.
ReplyDeleteIn Anna Nalick's (spelling?) song "Breathe" she has a great line: Life is an hourglass glued to the table."
ReplyDeleteOnce the sands begin flowing down, we can't stop it, as the amount of sand in the top decreases, the speed of the sand increases---or seemingly so.
I hope you and The Ronald have a marvelous Christmas surrounded by kids and grandkids...
Aloha Becky,
ReplyDeleteGlad your progressive dinner party turned out to be lots of fun!
I know what you mean about the nostalgic emotions that seem to pop up just because. This coming new year will mark the 2nd anniversary of my mother's passing; I miss her terribly. I miss my dog, Duchess who have passed now for ten years. When I hear certain songs or see certain movies, they tend to bring up feelings from the past and what have been lost. I have to take a moment to let it, then let go and move on.
Ok, stay safe, stay warm and Merry Christmas.
I love the quote this time around, Becky. Summed things up well.
ReplyDeleteThe holidays are always an emotional time, I think, but even more so for you now because of your sweet Tiger. Hang in there. It will get easier eventually. You are lucky to have so many wonderful memories of Tiger.
Wishing you all the best. Hugs to you.
Hi Becky - I wish there were words to ease your pain over losing Tiger. There aren't. We always try, but kind words don't take the ache away. But she's still with you, you know; you won't ever really lose her.
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas to you and your family!
Have a very Merry Christmas!! I am so sorry about your loss of your dog. I've been there and it does take time as they are part of our families.
ReplyDeleteI think losing a loved one so close to Christmas only doubles the pain. Every emotion seems heightened this time of year. May you soon feel nothing but happy reminiscences!
ReplyDeleteOh Becky, I could identify with your post SO MUCH! I put the decorative pillows on my bed in the morning and next thing I know, it's time to take them off again to go to sleep. Wow! Where oh where did the day go?
ReplyDeleteI want to STOP the hands of the clock from advancing but I cannot.
The music, the Hallmark Christmas movies, the ambiance, everything, are all so beautiful at this time of year. I love it all!
I didn't know Tiger but I feel sadness, too, for YOU! Every time I see my Honey Cat I want to grab her and hold her to my heart. I love her so much and she's very old now, and her kidneys are not doing well. But each moment with her is a gift.
Hope your day goes splendidly. Susan
So sorry over your loss! Time is funny. We all have it, and we never have enough of it unless we're waiting for something good to happen...
ReplyDeleteHave a great holiday and take care!
I still feel that way about a few cats I've had, so you're not alone honey!
ReplyDeleteGlad the dinner was fun and that you got to clean up quickly afterwards, tidiness is always rewarding; outer order contributes to inner calm :)
Huge hugs!
Thank you all....so much...again! I've had such wonderful support from my blog friends, both local and far away. I think it's time to get back to my "old, sweet self" though, and find my bliss again...don't you? My next post will be a happier, more positive one...like y'all are used to! I promise!
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